cerisewoo

drink up, baby down
mmm, are you in or are you out
leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy
these mishaps
you bubble wrap
when you've no idea what you're like

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

it gains the more it gives
and then it rises with the fall
so hand me that remote
can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow

such boundless pleasure
we've no time for later now
you can't await your own arrival
you've 20 seconds to comply

i just need to rant. am i being too sensitive? you would delete your msgs, cus you don't want me to look at them. you would delete your call logs, cus you don't want me to see them. you know that to a particular person i'm super sensitive, yet when i asked about it, you claim said you're just friends. when i ask the content you told me i'm bo liao. why are you hiding. what if, i did the same, what if i delete all my msgs so you couldn't know. what if a particular someone called and you are curious i say that you're bo liao. i need to feel safe. is that too much to ask? you said that actions speak louder than words, so why are you hurting me with your words? you said for fun. hurting me with words is for your entertainment? you just said you wouldn't anymore. so why am i feeling torn up inside. i know you're a straightforward person, so maybe you actually meant what you said. 

Holidays are going to be over >:( to say the truth, i haven't really enjoyed myself hur. all because of me being ohso poor and i have to work. i wish holidays would extend. doing work for my mother gives me wayyy to much time to think. the more i think the more vulnerable i feel. some words hurt, makes me want to hide. seriously, what are you thinking. 

why am i so free when people around me are so busy. i feel bored, useless. i need to have a goal in life. 

sometimes parents are just so paranoid over little things. 

if only i could wash away all those little bumps in life, i'll be walking on flat ground. but it'd be so boring. but those little bubbles are so irritating. i'm being whinny :>

Going exam already >:( 
I don't like it, cause I just don't want to, refuse to focus! RAWR. Just 1 hour paper lor. Kns. Anyway, Shiru study! :D My life rocks. HEHEHEHE.

GummyBear, I love you. You're the best. You put up with me being unreasonable, you put up with my wrongs. I'm grateful that you're here for me. I couldn't ask for more. Sunshine in my life. <3 

I woke up dam blaaarrdyyy early for school today. Hardworking :) I wanted to pon Pubic Speaking uh, but didn't. Should have ponn-ed la! wlao, go there do nothing wait for denise only. HAH. I'm doing 'My best friend's wedding' Hmmm. :) Met sweetheart after school, bought draggie's present! dF<3 loves! I love my boyfriend. :D

We rank everything into groups, A being the top and Z being the bottom. We care a lot and give a lot of attention to As, it's what that matters. It's what fills most of our lives. But what about those Gs, Fs? Those in the middle, it's those little little things which we do not notice or think they are unimportant, but when they go down, or something happens. We realise that actually, they made an impact, but we overlooked them. Hmmm. Can one really overlook or accept those Gs and Fs which are flawed? 

 I've always wanted you to love me more than you've ever love anyone else. I know that you're less than what I deserve but exactly what I want. 

Some people come into our lives and quickly go, some stay for awhile and leave footprints in our hearts, and we are never, ever the same.

Everything is going great for me this week, I hope this doesn't end. :) Friends, family, relationship, school, work. Hmmm, I realise I don't really socialize with my class very well uh. The brain is a powerful thing, isn't it? It's a choice of happy or unhappy.

I really miss dF a lot. Wednesday was a great day, tired but I really treasure every single moment. I hope this doesn't end, no matter what, you guys would be the greatest.

It's good to be humble, but don't be demoralized. You're born to do great :)

If you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come out at night
when I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine

but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by

if you be my boat
I'll be your sea
a depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity
ebbing and flowing and pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free

but you can set sail to the west if you want to
and past the horizon till I can't even see you
far from here where the beaches are wide
just leave me your wake to remember you by

thing we all do, things we left unsaid

it wouldn't be the same anymore, but it's all too late.

i dun wan things to end up like this. i dun even know what i want. i'm a fucker. i'd look back 1 year, 2 years ago and said, i'm a fucker. and now, i still am. 

shiru you need to learn how not to destroy your own happiness.